i just want to be free.

Today is a so-so day.

NAPFA 2.4km run... 17.12mins!!!
YIPPEE!!! SUPER OVERJOYED!!!
=D
Thought that my 18.30mins last week when running during pe lesson will guarantee me a fail this time...
Thank goodness.
Now need to work on 5 stations.
Super scared of inclined pull up, sit ups, shuttle run...
Standing board jump still ok , sit and reach my favourite!
The rest... I seemed to have become very unfit lately.
Can't even do one proper inclined pull up... sighs.
Sit ups: my abdominal muscles are as strong as paper.
Shuttle run: i hope my speed can work on the test day.
I'm just wishing for a bronze now.
As long as i don't have to retake...
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Then need to do stupid pw pi.
Seriously...don't understand why they set the word limit at 500.
Simply not enough for me!
Tutor ask me to work on GI...
But how to when I can't cram everything in???
ARGH.
BOTHERSOME.

And I have a mountain of work to do.
...
HOW TO FINISH???
Need to hand in chi essay and GP reading tasks by tmr.
Seriously, I don't understand why I can't seem to finish my work,
Despite the amount of time I spend.
I'm just damn slow.
Sobs.
I miss sec4 times, when doing my work or not didn't really matter.

I want time for myself...
Kind of hard since i'm so busy.
I feel sleepy...
Yawns.
:0

feeling lousy

work work and work.
everyday need to do work.
argh... i need a break!

this weekend is one of the worst.
i can foresee the horrible tmr already.
and today was... well, disappointing, upsetting and teary.

i have homework for all 7 subjects, every weekend.
seriously, super tiring...
sighs...

then still got other things to worry about.
well, my life just sucks.
D:

sleep.

pissed

My mother is irritating the hell outta me.
She keeps screaming at people for no good reason.
My alarm clock on sundays are always her scolding my dad.
Arghh.
I'll be more than willing to get out of here.
My mood is always so ruined on this stupid day.
As if i'm not stressed enough.
>:/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIAN YIN AND SHILI!!!

I have decided to do this for people's birthday i can remember,
So for people whose birthday have passed,
Like vanessa, nad, chelsea,......
I'll do this for you guys next year!!!
=D

Went to tjc yesterday for sian's birthday.
I felt like a criminal in there -.-
Went with adrian, dunhao, licheng, karrui, mel, nad and cher.
The cake was decorated by cher at the icing room,
Very pretty, and the cake was super yummy!!!
Then we went to the school library when sian was to her lessons.
The library is...WOW.
Very big and awesome...
The fiction section actually exists,
Though the library looks quite old.
There are comfy sofas, and a comfy area for the students...
Just so WOW.

And so glad, cos sian was so happy and surprised!!
I miss everyone so much!
:X

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HENG HUI TING!!!

See? I'm the nicest person on earth.
I devoted one blog title to wish you happy birthday.
ALL IN CAPS LEI.
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something's wrong with me

I don't know what that something is.
I don't know why I'm so crazy and restless and not myself these few days.
That day after PE, I think i suddenly went crazy at james for something very trivial,
Like I asked him a question but he didn't answer.
I must have looked ready for a bed at woodbridge.
I can't seem to get myself to do work.

I don't know what's wrong with me.
I feel like i'm being pushed underwater,
Unable to breathe, unable to control myself.
I'm lost and confused.
I know my insanity is worrying james,
But i dunno what to do.
I really don't.
Help?!

01042010

Sorry for my lack of updates...

Three events this day.
1. Aprilfools' day (HAHA!)
2. Nad's Birthday - HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
3. James and my 400th day~~~ ilovejames!!!

Recent events also include
Van's birthday,
402 outing to chomp chomp,
AJC sports carnival,
festival of life and resilience programme,
Library@xms camp,
midc 1st 2 prelim rounds...

AND.
I CAN'T GO SPEECH AND HOMECOMING DAY!!!
SUPER DUPER SAD!!!
Cos got competition on that day...sad right?
I miss everyone so much!!!

That's all for now.
Need to study!
Stressed by my mugger hubby who is always one tutorial ahead of me...
-.-