下一个天亮

I really love this song. Think it describes my feelings appropriately now. =D

用起伏的背影 挡住哭泣的心
有些故事 不必说给 每个人听
许多眼睛 看的太浅太近
错过我没被看见 那个自己

用简单的言语 解开超载的心
有些情绪 是该说给 懂的人听
你的热泪 比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力 更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

用简单的言语 解开超载的心
有些情绪 是该说给 懂的人听
你的热泪 比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力 更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

时间可以磨去我的棱角
有些坚持却永远磨不掉
请容许我 小小的骄傲
因为有你这样的依靠

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

Scars

In yesterday's post,
I forgot to mention something.
Very coincidentally,
I realised while eating mee rebus yesterday afternoon
That both he and I have the same problem
Of sniffling when we eat food containing chilli.
Haha.

Last night,
He fetched me from the void deck (as usual),
Then we walked to this playground,
And we lied down on the ground,
Staring up at the stars.
It's been a long time
Since I last saw so many stars in the skies of Singapore.
It was a magnificent sight,
With the stars blinking at you.
Lying in his arms,
And fell asleep.
According to him,
I snored.
Hahahahaha!!!
But who cares?
I was very exhausted...
=p

The funniest thing was that,
We got chased off...
Haha!
Shall not fill in the details...

We then walked me home...
For don't know what reason,
He started emo-ing.
Second time of the day...
Haiz.
He boarded the bus and was so emo
That I myself started emo-ing when he left.
Sang 'xia yi ge tian liang' very loudly
As I walked home.
Felt very sad
Because I didn't know what was going through his mind,
Felt as though I didn't understand him enough...

Felt very tired initially,
But in the end had to blast mp3 music
To make me go to sleep...
Too upset I was.

Woke up this morning,
And met him at 8.
We kinda emo-ed before Chinese.
I was emo-ing because
I don't like him to feel inferior.
Fact is,
He is NOT!!!
He's the best boyfriend anyone can have,
Never failing to notice my mood swings,
Always cheering me up,
Lighting up my life...

So we went to Chinese lesson.
Kinda moodless,
Just wished that he would cheer up,
Then I'll be satisfied and happy too.

After enduring through the 2 hours plus of separation,
We met at the playground,
Though I hoped he didn't leave me to walk there on my own.
I felt so sick,
Head was spinning,
Legs were weak and jelly,
Aching all over.
Tried not to let him worry,
But he still noticed.
We went to the 2nd playground,
And I fell asleep on his lap.

Wished I could have stayed in that comfortable position forever,
And just look deep into his eyes
Forever.

We had to leave.
Met quite many people from my class.
And they were like giving us that 'woah' look.
What?
I just wish that anybody who gets to see this
And know me,
Please,
Stop talking about my affairs in class.
I have my own reasons for not saying.
So stop gossiping behind my back,
And intruding on my privacy.
When the time is right,
I'll tell you guys everything.
So please,
Shut up now and stop irritating us.
Stop meddling in others' lives.

Well, moving on to talk about my title,
Scars.

Each of us have our own set of scars in our lives.
Me,
I used to be a bad girl in school,
Had two bad records in primary school,
Think I disappointed couple of teachers.
Sorry.

Then in secondary school,
Did some very wrong things
That I regret lots now.
The scar from my previous relationships,
I regret to say,
Is still not fully healed yet.
It's still healing...
I don't know how long it will take to heal.
I'm sorry, my dear.
Give me time ok?

I'm still confused,
What do I want in life?
My emotions are all in a whirl,
So confusing,
So messy,
So tiring.

Guess what I need now,
Is lots of protection,
Assurance.
To be frank with myself,
I'm an attention-seeker,
In grave need of someone,
To show his love for me all the time.

Have I found the person?
I guess so.

Let the scars heal,
Because until now,
They still hurt.

Short and Sweet

Title refers to both this post,
And today.

Was laughing throughout lessons,
Especially English.
Mr Cheng was saying about how we should write about someone we know for narratives,
But not change the person's name by swopping the letters in their name.
So people started swopping letters in their friends' names,
And I got my name 'transformed' into
Triscilla Poo.
Burst out into laughter immediately!!!
Couldn't stop laughing!
My partner laughed till she cried...
HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
Still can't stop laughing when I think about it now.

Then he came to my house
To help me install Microsoft Office on my 'beloved' computer.
Those of you who are thinking the wrong way,
My mum and sis were around,
So there.
Kinda happy,
Because he ate Mee Rebus for lunch at my house,
And it's the 1st time!
I'm basking in joy...

Ok, going to meet him soon...

*Relationships are about
Love
Trust
Understanding
Affection
Honesty
Tolerance
Loyalty
Faith*

Solar Storm

A bit of scientific stuff...
According to him and the internet news,
There's an upcoming solar storm in 2012,
Caused by eruptions of plasma radiating from the Sun towards Earth,
Also known as coronal mass ejections (CME).
These eruptions create electromagnetic interference
That can disrupt technology on Earth.
It will be a NIGHTMARISH situation,
As the disruption of the electricity-dependent technology on Earth
Causes problems such as
Famine,
Electrical shutdown,
Etc...
In short,
HAVOC!!!

This is so scary.
Does that mean if Singapore gets affected,
I'll die before I even gain freedom?
No no...
I don't want that.
Please,
This may seem selfish,
But let me and all my loved ones live.
Actually, please let everyone live.
I hate deaths.

Ok, moving on to today.

Feeling very sleepy and tired throughout the day,
Don't know what's wrong with me.
Slept during recess while listening to mp3.
Addicted to the song
'Xia Yi Ge Tian Liang' by Claire.
Very nice...
:D

Then trying very hard not to sleep in Maths lesson.
Saved by the bell for lunch period,
When the hungry me when to buy junk food,
Junkie me.

Highlight of the day: Prelim English Oral.
I was the 2nd person taking the oral,
And I got _______, my "favourite" teacher for examiner,
Guess on your own...
I spoke for more than 15 minutes,
And my friends were on the verge of killing me.
Haha!
But my examiner kept yawning,
Argh.
Hopefully can do well,
Said lots of crap.

Then waited for him to be released from oral.
Went to buy ice-cream to eat,
Finished it just when he came to meet me.
And we ate the junkie fried stuff that I bought.
As usual, we had to part...
Sobs.

Nevertheless,
I'm going to treasure all the time I have now,
Just in case the solar storm
Does any harm to me and my loved ones,
Especially him.

So smile,
And be optimistic!!!
Loves~

Breakthroughs

Several breakthroughs in my life recently...

Finally passing physics test,
Surprisingly topping chinese,
Getting stalked the first time in my life
(by this idiot...it was so scary!),
Timing of less than 17mins for NAPFA 2.4km run
(16:21mins...yippee! And I wasn't the last.
2As and 4Ds = Silver for NAPFA!!!)
...

Today, had NAPFA.
Which is when we did 2.4km run,
And I got 16:21mins,
Position 19 out of 25 people.
Still slow, but improvement from previous years!
Yay!
So my results for NAPFA are as follows:
Sit and reach (my favourite!) - A (53cm)
Inclined pull-up - A (18)
Sit-up - D (24)
Standing broad jump - D (158cm)
Shuttle run - D (12.2secs)
2.4km run walk - D (16:21mins)
Looks ok, at least it's silver,
Better than my totally flunk last year.
Haha.
Bad thing was,
Feeling giddy and nauseous after the run,
But refuse to go to sick bay.

Then was cramming for chem test the rest of the day.
Scammed.
That test was tough!
Goodness, please let me pass...

Moving on,
Two major breakthroughs I'm aiming for in my life now:

(1) Doing exceptionally well for O Levels
Hopefully, 9A1s?!
But I really suck at some subjects,
Eg. Physics, Chemistry, Maths, SS etc.
How?
Guess I'll probably need experts to help me.
I think I'm becoming more and more stupid.
Argh.

(2) Love him and be with him forever
The first part is mainly accomplished.
But I'm going to prove,
Correction: WE are going to prove,
That there is no end to true love.
That if you doubt that we will last long,
You are very wrong.
Never before,
Do I have such a strong urge
To tell the whole wide world
That I'm in love.
With the best man I can ever get.
He's the exception,
Who has brought a different light to my life,
One which is brighter,
More reliable,
And more promising.

*If you doubt true love, think again.
Falling in love is not just a day affair,
It's promises and memories
For life.*

No happy endings...

The title may make it seem as though I'm emo-ing,
But I'm not.
I have been told my life is so dramatic,
Just like dramas.
I partially agree,
Because there's one distinct difference
Between my life and drama serials.

In drama serials,
Happy/sad beginnings:
Varies between different shows.
Happy endings:
Most of the time,
When the baddie(s) is/are dealt with or dead,
And the goodies finally ending with
Happy ever after.
That's where they end,
Happily,
And the rest is supposedly up to our imagination.

Whereas in my life,
Happy beginning:
I guess so, a new baby in the family...
Tough growth:
Enjoyed childhood,
Teenage-hood is fun yet stressful.
Yet to experience adulthood.
But mine will definitely not be a happy ending...
Why?

Because,
There is NO ending.
Dramas' happy endings refer to loving couples being together,
And that's it.
For me,
Together I am with the most adorable man in my life,
But in our love dictionary,
There's no such word as 'ending'.
Death? Signal to the end of our love?
NO!

We'll leave the mark
On our friends,
Loved ones,
Children,
Grandchildren...
The power of our love,
Makes us believe that our love will never end...

Hence,
No happy endings.
But no sad endings too.

Our 'drama' is one of
NO ENDINGS.

Creation

Never before had I thought that there will be a day when I can truly immerse in true love.
But I have found him.
Changed all my naive perceptions about attaining world peace
Made me more open-minded

With him,
I dared to dream.
I'm starting to form many illusions and imaginations about my life,
But I know that as long as they are realistic wishes,
Perseverance will aid me in this journey,
To push me to do my best.
And of course, love will definitely play a part in giving me the support that I need.

Moving on to school stuff...
I passed my physics test! Finally... I'm so happy!!!
But because the student's behaviour was lousy during assembly, every class had to be punished for one hour in the parade square.. Argh.
Nevertheless, we still found the opportunity to meet,
And had fries.

Just as the title suggests,
My personal motto to being a chef is:
"Creativity to innovate and present the best to everyone."
Similarly, my motto in life is:
"Let love lead the way, and pass it on to everyone.
Not to forget, the man who took this journey with me..."
I want to do the best I can for all my loved ones,
Especially him,
Because I want to create the 'best meal' to light up the lives of others.

54 days of forged ties,
Bonds that can never be broken.
It's not made of any matter,
It's made of LOVE,
Which explains its immense strength.

Love, not just restricted to me and him.
But true love?
I guess it's not easy for everyone to find it.
Alas, I have found mine.
And I'll treasure it
FOREVER.

Miracles

Was re-reading the last book of Fruits Basket again... It's like the first manga I have ever read and my favourite!

Finally, the curse is lifted, and all the loving couples can be together.
Kyo has also finally taken the initiative in Chap.133 to ask Tohru out for a date.
Tohru, the girl who has always been optimistic and waiting for miracles, said,
"For the miracle to continue longer and longer and if possible always walking.
Together connecting hands, I want to give more strength to it.
Because it is most definitely not 'a given'."

True, I agree with her.
Love, it's not a given.
It is the product of both parties affections and feelings for each other,
During the process of which there are changes, sacrifices, admiration...
Even when the bridge is formed between the hearts,
There's always the job of maintenance, which both parties have to keep up with.

In my 1st relationship(the failed one), that was what was lacking, the effort to keep things going,
Because a sturdy foundation was missing.
I learnt my lesson, and vowed not to repeat those mistakes again.
I can say that I'm successful,
Probably because he accepted me despite my hideous past,
And taught me how to move on.
He took the lead,
And showed me the way to life.

Just like what happened just now,
We may have conflicts in this relationship.
But with 'forgive and forget',
Quarreling is just another platform for us to learn to better cherish each other.

Stumble and fall,
But remember to pick yourself up and move on with life again.
He taught me these,
And made the miracles in my life happen.
For eg, finally freed from a loveless relationship,
And no longer stereotyped against 'jie di lian'(means relationship between a girl older than the guy),
When I used to say 'no' to someone just 1 minute younger than me... Haha.

The motivation once again,
To study hard,
For our sake.
Lovesick as we are,
We know where our priorities are, at least for this year.

Together,
We can strive to excel,
And create the miracles we never thought could happen.

Slacking at CCA..

Yes, I'm slacking now,bored and waiting to be dismissed..so that I can let my dearest boy fetch me home. Haha. =p

Well, last Friday and Saturday were perfect! Besides egging, there were those affectionate and passionate moments that are so memorable and unforgettable. Thank you, for all the special times and memories that we have created together. They are moments that I forever hold deep in my heart.. =D

Today's one of my best pri sch friend's birthday! Happy birthday and sweet sixteen! Loves forever for all my dearest and closest and most beloved friends..

The both of us, we're waiting for Grad night, when everything can finally come to light. Patience is prudence.

That's all for now. I'm Chrome, always loving Mukuro.

Signing off..

=p

Cheerio and Birthday wishes..

Hi to all my beloved readers (erm, there should only be 2 of you..)!

Firstly, Happy Birthday to my girl friend! Thanks for having been a great friend and lending a great listening ear always to me! Long life to our friendship!!! =D

Except for the fact that eggs keep falling on my head figuratively, nothing interesting has been really happening in my life.. Hence, I have come up with a list of the things I wish for my birthday this year which is about a month away.. =D

Wish fors:
1. Birthday cake
2. Birthday cards
3. Post-its
4. New songs
5. Language books
6. Soft toys
7. Notebooks
....(still thinking)
- NO HELLO KITTY STUFFS PLEASE
*Someone special to spend the day with me

Can't get yet/difficult to achieve, but wishing for..
1. Freedom
2. Control over my own life
3. All my loved ones to be happy
4. A clean break from the bastard
5. To spend every bit of my life with the man I love (for this man's sake, it's a definite answer!)


(For his sake, the figurative meaning of "boiled eggs" (not just at night) refers to the warm feelings and emotions when "egging".. And the heartwarming feelings. Lol. Nobody will understand this except for the two of us..)